Feeling some kind of way!

It's early am and I'm up for no apparent reason. I just feel some kind of way I don't know why I'm just sitting here thinking about my past and my future on what I've been through and what I've yet to experience in life. It's so many things I want to do but time is getting away from me. I really need to re-evaluate the people and things in my life and really ask my self are they worth it. Is this what I truly want for myself. Sometimes it's like a prison and you can't escape what your feeling. I wish that sometimes I didn't have such strong feelings about things but I can't change the way I feel. I am always trying to work it out and be a people pleaser but in pleasing others who's ever gonna please me? I can't answer that question right now I try to get through life on a daily bases and stay drama and bullshit free. I don't ask for much of others I'm just a cool laid back person. I don't need diamonds and a mansion I'm content with what I have. I want more but to be honest I ask myself why haven't I made the first move to get more? It's funny how we all know what we like and we don't like but when it comes to life and what do went want to do or who do we want to be with or anything that is concrete not many of us know what we actually want or need.

I don't know

Ok so I just need to vent lol! I have very very irritated lately and I kinda know why but I think it's more to it. I am maturing in ways I never thought I would. It's the little things that get at me so bad that I could just explode example if you ask me for something and I say no that should be the end of it. Yet you take it upon yourself and take that shit anyways I just feel disrespected like your trying to walk over me and disregarding what the fuck I'm saying I don't get it are you doing the shit on purpose or do you just not fucking get the clue? I don't know. At work I'm to the point that I find myself wondering what I'm going to do when I finally walk around away from that bullshit I have literally put my goals and ambitions on hold to support my household but now I wonder if that's the right decision why not follow my dreams and let everyone else suffer. I work the hardest bring home the income and yet I'm the one still unhappy.I wonder everyday is it worth it? On one side yes we have a vehicle, home, and can live comfortably but is it worth my sanity and happiness that's the question I can't answer. I complain everyday and I get super pissed everyday I have to get ready to go to a job I hate is it really worth it I don't know. I'm just at a point where I'm tired of dealing with petty shit and disrespectful people that are not fulfilling what I want and need in my life. Time is flying fast and I feel like I'm wasting time and energy on everything and everybody except what matters ME I just don't know. I feel like there maybe something better out there for me but will I be strong enough to leave everything behind me to find out I don't know. This thing called life is so real and I just don't know what to do I kinda wish I could be a kid when nothing mattered but doing homework and going to school everyday when shit was easy to comprehend. I just don't know

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Mind Yo Damn Business

Hey everyone!

Today is just one of those days where you're just thinking about shit and your just fed up with the bullshit. Like if you spent half as much time as spend worrying about me you would have a jobs, car, and be actually making a effort to do something with your damn like other than stalk mines. I'm personally tired of the dumb shit. I'm tired of petty ass arguements, I'm tired of the smart ass comments, I'm tired of this person trying to down play me because there life ain't worth shit. I'm just tired of it. I feel like if you ain't got no goals and you don't want to do shit with yourself that's your business I have nothing to say about what you want to do with yourself. On the other hand when you are in my business or always have a negative or rude comment to say about me or what I'm doing then that's an issue. I'm really not the arguing type of person because to me that shit is pointless but I will correct yo ass where I see fit and I have no problem doing so. I just feel like why do so many of us allow negative people in our life? Whether it's friends, relatives, spouses, or whatever. Why do we allow people to try to take our joy away? I'm tired of it I feel just like this and who ever don't like it then dats your opinion I appreciate your input but to be honest I really don't give a damn about how you feel. This is about me if you don't like me or what I'm doing or anything about the person that I am I really don't give a fuck. If you hate the way I style my hair or wear my makeup I really don't give a fuck so with that I just want to say this If what I'm doing, saying, etc gives you a reason to say a negative or rude comment to me please rethink what your about to say and MIND YOUR DAMN BUSINESS. I didn't invite you into my world to hear your negativity and I'm damn sure not gon allow you to continue to be an asshole with me. I will pull your ticket and you will be dismissed from my life because I am a mature grown ass woman and I have no time for childish bullshit.


Thanks Fa Listening to My Rant

Ya Girl
Laura

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